....and at first everything was going ok. I held back but she were doing things...like rubbing by arm, hand, foot...etc...like how she did when she had feelings for me. So I was like, "Cool, I'll show that I feel the same way." There was another day where she slept on my lap and I didn't mind at all. If my leg didn't eventually cramp up, she could have slept there for the whole day and I wouldn't mind. Its so peaceful to watch her sleep. But recently, she would just wave goodbye. No hug....

....I told someone who I care about A LOT....to go out with another guy.

I didn't think much about it at the time but why was it so hard to do? Obviously I still care about her. I thought I moved on but after tonight, I'm not entirely ok.

There is not enough alcohol to drown my sadness. There aren't enough things for me to do that'll keep her out of my mind.